I'm still here

I felt the need to post that I am not dead, so that the two people still occasionally checking this site will be reassured on that point.

As it stands, this is the condition of my health:

I have a mass of some sort in my lung. It could probably stay there (60%) but we can't know 'til it comes out. The coming out is scheduled for June 15, having been pushed from June 10 a few days ago. I have been pursuing a holistic approach towards healing myself, but I doubt its efficacy, and I will not be eschewing surgery in favor of holistics; if I eschew surgery, it's just because I don't want a chunk of my lung taken out. I really fucking don't want a chunk of my lung taken out.

Dates:
1 June - followup evaluation to see if the holistics did anything at all.
2 June - breathing class
4 June - blood work (Eastwood, 2002)
6 June - pre-op evaluation
8 June - breathing evaluation
15 June - fucking goddammit cocksucker. Also, Batman Begins opens, and I strongly doubt I will be able to attend.

Gaaah

The short version: I need surgery, and it is going to suck.

The long version: there is no long version. I need surgery, and it is going to suck, and the alternative is a very premature death, and that doesn't mean I've decided yet.